I'm really want to cry 6/5

I don't know what i'm feeling anymore, you know how I am, I think I forced my friends away from me, I forced my family away from me, and I think I even forced my GirlFriend away. I'm going to a party tomrrow, and I think that is going to help out with my depression. I think I have ADHD because anytime i'm not doing something, i'm completely and uterly sad and in the bucket of my sorrow dorwning in my past weeps formed by the crys for last weeks downs and up. I just feel this way right now. It's 3:00 right now and I want to go to sleep cause I got that party. I need to do something that envoles me with the music of my life. I need to get back to my past spirt but drop the sorrow. Peace and much love to all you that will take it from a complete stranger that you just read the blog of their feelings and thoughts, because all I write is from the heart at the moment that which my mind thinks it in the moment.